nice to be feeling alive

ya it feels like ive been dead for awhile out of commision,i have missed writing, and talking to my buds on thoughts, you all have been there for me when i needed you, and for that im grateful!! feeling better a little bit everyday baby steps, its hard...

hello

ya friday is a fun nite for all the kiddys,ya the neighbors all hand out  the good stuff.had the flue still have it im feverish and deliryous,what a great time to say hello. been gone for so long dont know how long exactly im ill i tell ya,  ok i just...

do we ?

stay where its familiar?, or do we venture out of our comfort zone?, whats around that corner?, do we dare to even look into that corner?

hello

boy oh boy i have missed thoughts, hope you all are ok  as for me i am living my life as it should be lived to the fullest,havnt written lately couse  like i said ive been out there doing my thing everyday no one to steel my joy! feels pretty darn...

waffles!!

well hello  the house smells soo sweet vanila fills the air butter the irish butter  oh ya, hope you all are fine and dandy!! me been busy living my life, have alot to write,its all good,well i have a real mystry on my hands. the boys are doing realy...

been living!!

well hello thoughts friends! hope you all are doing great, been busy living my life for once! feels nice. to be FREE!  to be me  i mean totaly   i think i have a nervous breakthrough!  ya  ive seen the lite!!  the boys are well adjusted,and are pleased...

comments

ok im almost done,,we were saying our prayers,BC was in the living room shouting are you praying your daddy will just die?  crapp i could not believe this! i closed the door so my boy would not here this uglyness,  see hes losing it  its happening fast...

anger?

hmm i wonder lately what makes people soo darn angry,  i am speaking of one person in particular ya ball and chain,  he has an anger problem,says hes sorry  then the next freaking day,  ok mean guy,,its like he wants to beef with me! crap  dont want to...

hold it in

nope i dont recomend it,let them out give a shout  cry if you like  why else do we have tears? that we can use when we need to, our hearts break over and over and over again  so what do you do?keep it together for the boys,dont let them see you sad,...

ok focus

i have had a hard time lately focusing on my life, dragging myself around doing my everyday stuff, life im in a cloud or something,,gotta comment th other day from this lady,she asked why i looked sad,  i wasnt aware i looked as sad as i am, always...

did not work,

ya  i tried to have ball and chain over for supper the other nite, boy the minute he walked in i knew he was cranky or wanting to lash out,  ok feed the boys  its like he wanted to argue with me, hu i invited him over so we could be a family  hay im...