thinking

boy it must be a dragg to think about how much you cant eat every day count and measure what ever you put into your mouth  always afraid of that scale  dont even wear a sock couse it mite weigh an ounce or somthing  always thinking your too fat and you...

Father

hung out with my dad today,the boys and myself went over to his pad and he took us to this hole in the wall eatery  boy was the food Great!!we laughed our butts off and ate good food together   i think the waitress liked my dad she wasa smiling at him ...

decide

My heart and my mind are fighting constantly,is this the way its suposed to be?oh i toss and i turn  hell no im not gonna get burned,the two fighting constanly,i am tired and always unsettled in my thinking,the two fighting constanly,they have to learn...

yum

ok there are good things as well as stupid things,,caught a few brookies enough to feed the boys,, gutted those fish and cooked them on the grill  yumm talk about fresh,,we only catch what we are gonna eat,,i surprised my boys   heck my oldest said i...

deep end

ok i almost lost it yesterday,took the boys fishing  this creek up the hill a little  well anyway this man and his boy or grandson came over to MY spot and cast his line  heck we had been there an hour,  he threw his line in and he was practicly...

long ago

the footsteps coming up that old dirt road   go to the window take a peek  his heavy workboots dragging  his very soul is weary  her heart has goosebumps she will take care of his weariness even with just a look,   peace

running

running on quicksand before i sink dont want to crumble and get sucked under  keep on running always moving  i start to fall and almost give in seeking to my knees  i cry please oh please give me your hand and help me  it pulls me up and out of the...

for her

i know this lady from the boys school she just got married and wants to start a family sound all  good and all they baught a house fixed up a nursery for the baby she so wanted  they tried for awhile  the doc told this woman she couldnt have a baby ...

baked

boy oh boy is it very hot supposed to get to 100 today,,oh well there are worse things i guess,we have a place to live and food to eat and a sweet cat Frazier  my mom taxi is fixed!!yes  the stupid pump exploded as soon as i turned into my driveway  i...

consumes

it consumes my flesh  it consumes my blood  and yes even my soul  i try to stiffle it but it consumes me all the time like a running river that never ends  cant find the begining or the ending   it just never stops consuming my brain my breath  its so...

mail

i checked my email earlier  rockheart sent me a mail, he said he still loves me and that i had given him alot over the 20 years we have been married  he thanked me for the two wonderful boys and  home i have kept for him  and kept him in line  like if...

20 years

yes today i have been married to rockheart for 20 years  i cant believe it,,,,,flowers and candy sounds great,,i told him what i wanted to remind him   he does not have to spend alot of money  the thought is nice even if i put it in his head,,,peac

win!!!!!

ok last nite my boy played a  championship game a kinda world series  guess what  they won!!!!they had some bad calls by blue  they trailed by 10, well they caught up and won the championship!!trophys  all around,the team earned the win played hard and...

soggy

ok the boys and myself tried to set off the old fireworks last nite,couldnt get anything lit windy and realy rainy, oh well we will try agin tonite,hope you all had a sweet fourth,went to Fort Logan cemetary to visit my father in laws grave site, i...