thats all?

he tells me the budget,ok i got it  i can do it,he calls me and talks about money,  he visits the boys  he talks about money,he shoves a paper at me with written instructions on how i should spend my budget money,,wait a miniute is that all you ever...

ok

he called from Mexico and asked if everything was ok,,well of course its ok,,just hot  you get used to it after awhile,well anyway rockheart is on a job  some gold mine or something  hes an engineer structrual and civil,i  thank  my maker for his...

dread

ok am i wrong    i just want her to pass already,the waiting is unbearable,,shes so out of it,the family  rockhearts family are doing the best they can do under the cercumstanses,we went yesterday to see her i kissed her forhead and told her Godsspeed...

laying there

yep went to see my mom in law,just laying there asleep, well drugged on morphine  shes feeling no pain  i will just say that,she is peaceful as heck,i kissed her forhead and said i love you,she opened her eyes for a moment but it was a special...

wiggle

yep i realy dont want to go see her on her deathbed,,im no good in those situations,,yes i have to be respectful she is my mom in law,i want to remember her in a different way,like all the times we had a coffee together and just talked  or not,,she...

comminicate

yesterday i was in my kitchen and i was hearing edie  she was whispering i love you in my ear, i was hopeing it wasnt true this voice which meant only one thing,,she was gonna leave this earth,and very soon,,idid hear her as plane as day,i never tell...

home

ok she isnt doing so good,her vitals are going down hill,its her time to go back home again,,she has suffered long enough,she is 89,my mother in law,rest well,,,,,,,she will probably go today,,rockheart went to be with his mom,,,,,bjm

fast

boy this week went by so fast,i guess when you get older the time goes quickly,,the weekend is upon us,,rockheart wants to take us on vacation,hu you mean all of us together?he is not even liveing in the home,,he wants us all to have fun, ya whay dont...

peace

just messing around i guess no one needs me for anything at the moment,,i have started a new book,crime and punishment,,its good so far,,,,bjm

funds

well the boys want to go do something and  no funds in my budget for even bowling,,i feel bad,i could put it on the visa,,but rockheart has me by the nutts on that subject,oh excuse my language there,he tries to controle me  with the money issue  he...

roll your own

ok i have a friend  he rolls his own ciggs couse its cheaper   smokes are almost 6 buck a pop,he just gets papes and tabacco,,its been saveing him lots of  greenbacks   well anyway just was thinking what else he rolls up in those papes of his,,,hes a...

monkey bread

yum  the boys cant believe i have the oven on,,its already hot so why not have some goodies to make your mouth happy  well your tastebuds,,,,monkey bread  has brown sugar and butter and heavy cream,,oh boy a heart attack on a plate,,,did i say the...

nebraska heat

went to the canal boy it was about 100 degrees no shade buggs  well you get the picture,caught these catfish,they are fighters and fun to catch,i was fishing with some natives to the area,fun times   well anyway i caught the biggest and the most of...

power

ok rockheart has been living outside the home for awhile,,its no different realy having him gone as when he is here,no emotional support  thats cool i got used to it,not gonna curl up and die,i have other avenues  like great brothers who adore the...

clubing

ok my youngest has a friend    he hangs out with him in his mansion, yes this place  i think Trump lives there    im not kidding  10 bedrooms,we dont have a mansion just a modest ranch home,,,boy  airconditioning  in every tiolet  go figure,,,they...

ok

i will try this once again,,,bjm

big one

yes i am gonna catch the big one,it got bigger since last season  and fatter  all the better for my tummy,fresh trout   oh boy i am salavating already,,,the big guy is haunting me when i am awake and when i am in slumber,teasing me to come up the...

hmm

the boys are both gone,i have the home to myself  i wonder what i could do with this time i have? the place is picked up  too hot to do laundry,,,i guess i could  do nothing at all,,,hope you all are great today,,,,,bjm

comments

the wireless thing i have been useing dont work very well, but at least i can  go to thoughts,some where familiar  i try to respond to the comments  and some times it just dont work,,,,  just wanted to say i appreciate all my cool thoughts friends  if...

morning

the morning looks calm and feels calm listening to the robins song,i will see what the day will bring  to my heart and to those around me,i wish the world joy and peace within yourself,lend a hand for those who need help,     bjm

morning

banana pancakes yumm  you dont need anything to put on them  just warm goodness,waiting for my bro to call;  hope you all are great today,,,bjm

different

i  knew this day would come,i have a chance to relax for awhile,the boys are doing their own thing  at different places,one son calls me and asks to stay a little longer, to hang with his buddys,,well ok i tell him   but make good choices,my boys arnt...

nope

i have removed the problem in my life,the father of my two great wonderful boys,,been married 21 years, he wont get help,he drinks every day,he is staying with his sister  and will remane there for as long as it takes,,,he sees the boys after work...

today

oh boy today is the day,boy the simple things in life   like a fridge,its coming tonite,,,ya ya you say im sick of this chicksproblems,,,ya it could be worse i guess was sad earlier  but i snapped and slapped myself out of the ugly mood, the boys...

fridge

well had to buy a fridge  yes  my old one went capooey,,just stopped working  only had it around eight years  just burnt out i suppose   the boys and i went to the store and got a basic one   they will deliver the thing tomorrow,,,,been without for a...